hi yea been in my head a lot here is a collage of image i found on the internet and some sketches maybe

these cats have c l a w e d that scrathich post which looks so nice aha 

me with a ranging rod in my goth phase (2013 ? ) 

new painting, looked v demonic in the afternoon sun lol

I really messed this up oops, i added this ‘air dry clay’ i got off ebay and it was not it cracked and was allround very annoying, but ive got some more stuff and can hopefully salvage. I have decided it will become a sphinx cat and I will use latex to do this, im thinking on the tail mainly, i will makea long thin tube of it and wrqp it and drape it like when your sweing a band for something and then you have to flip it the right way out. THE teeth will be egshells, and its lucky me and my flatmate are having eggs for lunch today! 

Anyway i dont know if i want to give the cat teats, there is room for em, and it would b fun to do i don’t know,i could just do lil nipples? lemme know in the commnets. Also yea im just really tired but also wired ygm? was talking to a mate at goldsmiths whos had loads of access to his studios and it just made me a bit sad, I think also I inhaled a lot of turpentine yesterday which was a bit annoying. Is hard to make stuff on ur bedroom floor u know 🙁 also didnt apply 4 newcontemps becuase it was a 25 pound application fee?! and i was like im sorry im not paying 25 pound to be rejected lol, i can pay much less elsewhere. but yea i hope i do apply next yr, i don’t know it is such an ellitiest idea of spending money for applications i fear myself verging on complete disillusionment with art establishment. Its like we’re trapped and still turning a profit for people, i don’t know, ugh lol (Sorry this turned into such a sappy post oops) 

wahhhh

bye. 

Mar 2, 2021

Dearest readers!!!

I have exciting news! Ive discovered a fantstic new relic we can decifer! I am still awaiting conformation from my superiors at the museum for me to share with you the image but I thought I could put my preliminary understandings of the object here in order to garner your intrique!

The man in the goal post alludes to a mob mentality but the presence of the scorpion is there to show its poisonous nature but also the temporary and fleeting nature of football courts. The man’s head is dislodged from his body, his own mind becomes the ball that is used to distract ourselves from the realities we can’t bare to face. The fish is scaley, like an unmosturised palm she sits in the same blue as the sky, maybe shes flying ? like a blimp? Floating above the surface and skimming her dainty fins on the ozone. Next we have the swan. The swan is dead. and is hanging from her poachers hook, theyve painted on her eyelids another eye to maintain the illusion of her being alive, like they did for dead Victorian children that the forgot to toake phtotos of before they died. She clutches onto a strawberry leaf in her jowels , she loved to eat strawberryies and other tuberous vegetataion before her death. Soon she will hand from the neck of a duchess, lucky her.

Then we have owlcat! She sits on a chimney and is actually not real but a prop the landowner has installed to deter crows. Crows hate both cats and owls so this is ideal. The manufacturer has accidentally put a toy scorpion into her belly? That’s odd ahaha. Next we have a square whos visualisaton has not yet made itself apparent to me. I think it’s a mine from minesweeper but also could be the sun, either way its prone to explosion. Then we have the eponymous cats paws hanging on to a barbers shop pole, this red and pink design differes to that of the border that the other things find themselves trapped in, that border are river measures, to measure the slope of a river from two given points, these can be used to check if the painting undergoes any tiliting! Theres a naughtical name for that: lift ? the cat is vey cold, as she is blue, and I hope she seeks medical attention soon because this could lead to amputation. Next we have the shiny snake, although this is just her shed skin, its quite nice don’t you think? Sort of looks like the letter three, I wonder if that could mean something, oh yes look! There are three strands of spaghetti in the pot! That means the number three provides an important role in how we understand everything. Lets move on to the jelly, theres some sort of symbol there in the jelly, it looks very familiar… the environment is decaying but the jelly is preserved thank god!! THEN FINALLY we arrive at the central panel. This is the madame who will arrive in three weeks. She is the lady that has orchestrated this event and reached out to me personally. She cant e talkyou see  but communicates only through her fine cuisine, she has prepared for us some spaghetti she has died orange, orange that came from some organic carrots. I cant wait for her arrival, we will soon be able to converse around a lovely dinner and have a nice good catch up xxxx

 

updadte: the nautical term for tilting is listing and the pole is called a ranging rod, ok bye

Feb 21, 2021

loool my desk is suuuch a mess aha what am i like its so intense. in this pic is the painting im working on 2 try and get myself going with makin imagé. I am not convinced by it at all, it feels soooo derivative lool. I tried 2 take inspo from my man neil bailey but its come out a lot like that v popular insta style, u know what i mean? it doesnt feel like the real me loool oh well. I reeeeally want 2 laminate it tho, and put that little bow in it so it gets flattened in the laminator. also the foil will be laminated. Does anyone know where you can laminate things? pls let me know. 

also look at my new beret hehe isnt it nice, I put my hair in a plait too cause im extra and love words with a silent ‘t’. also u know I am learning french on duolingo so u know gotta be authentic and such. 

also

the cat scultpture is being done, omg do I hate air dry clay but i legit cant think of an alternative, I was considering salt dough again but idk…. could b fun ? unsure 🙁 

Feb 18, 2021

Im sorry I post on here so much, it feels super inconsequential or something, like all i posts just escape into the aether.

Anyways so i was looking at old files and I found this poem I wrote about my cats in 2013!!! cat lady since day one aha, I was 12 when i wrote this:

Love cats

You are my meowing lamp,

Brightening even the darkest day

You are my purring pianist

Bringing happiness where you play

You are soft rug

But never will you fray

Because I will love you every day

And from that rule I will never stray

But yea that’s quite jokes, here is another love poem I wrote to my cats more recently:

My serpentine suture

solitarily u snake around

you ripple with ginger,

ur cotton socks are slumping

ur eyes r oil-filled and diffractorary 

ur hammock-belly low-hanging and hastily-languid

fast moving eyes! stimulus searching

u r a reacher, a stretcher,

u yearn, u purr

and hum with the music

 

(oh oops I guess thats where i got the snake cats thing from? ) 

 

Feb 12, 2021

(me in the snow! post dissertation hand in! drank a lot of prosseco aha what am I like! )

Yeaaaaa so im planning out a painting I want 2 do with a cat whos got snakes for arms, and kinda like a bobcat kinda vibe ygm? loooove the lil tuft of ear on the edge of its ears that is just so nice, want 2 fork that like a snakes tongue. Also wanna mayb fork the whiskerz too, i don’t know what do u think? split endz :((((

Alsooo this is a thing i am in the process of making, its like a cat breathing out catnip from its breath (stinkyyyyy), this is inspired from this scene in catwoman 2006: 

god i love that bad cgi and v dramatic music, it is so good. 

bye hunnies xoxox

Feb 11, 2021

Hi so yea im about to go IN TO a reading group. Its about werewolves, and i love that. the two pieces of fiction that are being discussed are wolf alice and the werewolf by angela carteer. its so funny i was on the phone to a mate the other day and i was like oh u like wolves? u should ready anglea carter the bloody chamber and he was like lol I read that yesterday! what a coinkidink!

Any way I first incountered mrs carter in my a levels where i wrote about her text the bloody chamber and the parts I wroTE i quite liked i will put them here:

The unnamed protagonist becomes a peregrine woman- her shift in allegiance and citizenship into the “country of marriage”. She almost is betraying her original nationality while simultaneously being foreign to both. In this way the protagonist inhabits the liminal
cavities of two of the key stereotypical roles of the feminine, as well as the physical
liminal setting of the castle: ‘That castle, at home neither on the land nor the water… an amphibious place, contravening the materiality of both earth and the waves’. The
seashore is a non-constant representation of the liminal and unanchored nature of the
setting. This shows the contradiction of being trapped in an indefinable cage.

I love the line contravening the materiality of both earth and the waves, gosh that is so nice, theres something about the rythm of that that has got stuck in my head for 4 years lol. The seashore challenges this idea of land and sea and prestens it as this gradient instead which is well nice.

Liminality is so present in the later, wolf-ier texts in her anthology: the werewold and wolf-alice. There is this real nice discussion of ‘skins’ sarah small writes in her text about this. The medieval werewolf model of reading skin. so very nice, it talks about vellum and RECTO AND VERSO the analogies for lycanthropy, so delish recomend a read, tho is lightly too complicated 4 lil old me. 

ALso new fave word : MANTHROPOCENE ! aha thats so funny i dont really know why I like it so much I think its just really jokes. 

Also whoops haven’t made anything yet, been soooo confused by my diss, it has completely enveloped me i hate it i want it to be over. I am so done with it, and like im so glad i have an extension but im also like i really just want 2 create something physical plsssssss. 

Ideas for paintings: 

I wanna do like a cat in the shower with some feet and soap, and i want to give the cat eating people thing another go too @ some point. Also got an idea for a sculpture that encorperates the aroma diffuser avec catnip that i was thinkin about at the end of last sem.

Also the house of a cat lady as post-human utopia ?? wot u think? maybe? would b nice to do some world building (thnx davie) with her home as the facilitator 

Feb 2, 2021